Many little girls dream of being mommies.
They carry baby dolls, stuffed animals, and play mommy and baby all the time. As a little girl, I dreamt of becoming a mother, but it happened much sooner than I expected.
As I have talked about in previous posts, on April 11th, 2016, I was in a horrible car accident where I was ejected from the car. This was the day I found out I was four months pregnant.

I had no words. I didn’t believe anybody. I didn’t even believe in myself.
I was only fourteen. I didn’t even have a mother to help me stay calm. Being that I was only 14 years old, the doctors tried to talk me into an abortion. The moment I found out it was a girl, things started to get real.
I was living with my biological father and things were horrible. He had us date older boys, so I thought that’s what was normal. Oddly enough, he told me that no one would ever help me out. He said he would use her as a slave. He was going to make me give her away. I made the decision that no matter the outcome, she was my baby and I would be the one to take care of her.  

I wish I had known that who you allow yourself to have sex with takes a part of you.
After having had two years of school, I didn’t understand the consequence of having sex. I didn’t know that once you had a period, you could have a baby. I didn’t know any better. The world was teaching me that having sex, no matter your age, was "normal."
According to scripture, when you have sex, two become one. I shouldn’t have become one with someone outside of marriage. None of them genuinely cared, had my best interests in mind, or sought a relationship with the Lord. 

Now, I know while sex outside of marriage is normal in the eyes of the world, it isn’t in the eyes of the lord.
Without the Lord to lead, guide, and direct me, I would have given up. On September 18th, 2016, Zamora was born, and it was the most incredible day of my life. I knew I would do whatever it took to protect her. Becoming a young mother changes you. Life is never dull. Life with a child can be challenging, surprising, funny, and scary; but the love I have for my daughter is unconditional.

The Lord changed me in many ways.
I am very grateful to have a daughter. I have learned so much about being a mother and teaching her to always keep God first, read the Bible, have honesty, good manners, and respect. It's very important to teach your child these things. Growing up with my biological dad, he didn’t put God first and was never honest, and very disrespectful. According to scripture, if I raise my daughter in the admonition of the Lord, when she grows old, she will not depart from it. (Proverbs 22:6)

I refuse to fail to raise her the right way.
I want to be found faithful to the Lord, especially in the area of mothering. Being a young mother is hard, stressful, and very overwhelming. But I have not and never will give up because I have Jesus on my side through everything.
If you are pregnant or have a child and feel alone, I urge you to pursue an intimate relationship with Jesus. He is as close as the mention of His name.

Please message me if you have any questions.